Had a pretty good night last night, aside from the feeling like total goat-shit part… Idk what happened, but i just felt…. Sick. Like very sick. Bird flu sick. T-Virus sick, even. Odd… “Home” now. Just got here. Waiting on my baby to get here, then…lord knows what’ll happen. Alone untill then…. uh-oh. :\
well.. at least today wasen’t a bad day… it was actually a pretty decent day, to be honest. i found a piece of wood, long and sturdy enough, to make a cane out of. just need a handle of some sorts, and a foot for the bottom of it, and i’m all set. will deffinitely help out a lot. got called crippled today, as well. right before i found the stick. how ironic..
-sigh- 2 weeks left… still not sure its quick enough. :\
i’d rather let the cards decide i know my fate, i cannot hide the scars i have, i boldly show hoping someone will show me just where to go
today:bleh. tomorrow:hopefully not bleh.. we’ll see. nervous tho..
totally not a good day.. ugh.. can’t fucking wait till friday..
When we seek to discover the best in others, we somehow bring out the best in...– William Arthur Ward (via ktresane)
another day like yesterday, and i’ll have a hole on my head. writing on the wall that says “i love you, forevermore”in a bloody shade of red. the days are growing longer, the nights growing more cold this shit i’m in, is starting to grow quite old if i’ve done any harm to you, at all, along the way then i’ve got a few words for you, so please.. remember...
has probably broken my toe today. walked up to a door, and it flew open with enough force to knock me on my back, and it hit my foot first. just fucking great.. as if getting food poisoning wasen’t bad enough for one day!?!?!?!?
horrible day… has only gotten worse… ugh. fuck you life. i hate your fucking guts!!
not feelin that great today. :\ oh well. maybe i’ll at least have a decent day.. Happy Easter!
probably shoulda seen this coming.. and you know what, i probably deserved it. somehow. i guess this is what happens when the peasant goes after the princess. just wish i coulda seen it myself, before she had to explain it to me.. sorry i put you through all this…i truely am..
-sigh- boredum.. :\
ugh!!! why do i gotta do this… why do i even talk anymore.. meeting people is WAY to effin’ awkward for me, the people i do know either think im a psychopath, or the ones i have a decent relationship with, i have fucked it up in some way so that if i even see them, its painful.. leaving that house…by far… sucked more than anything else tho… it woulda killed me, but if...
not a damn day goes by..
gotta stay strong..for her, if nothing else. she thinks i’m trying to make her feel bad? how the heck does she think that?? :( thats the last thing i want to do.. i want her to be HAPPY… and if i can’t do that for her, then she needs to find someone that can.. she deserves that. if i gotta be friend zone with her, i will live with that. i will. because that means i still get the...
well… had a good long time to think about it… and i gotta say.. ill be okay with it. once it really sets in, ill be okay. because what really matters is, she is still here. she still talks to me. sure there is a little tension now… but i hope it doesn’t last long.. i really do. because she is such a beautiful person on the inside. the kind of person i want to know. the kind...