well my day…. has sucked. to be polite. to be honest, it fucking sucked ass. but i’ll just be polite. woke up and couldn’t breathe because of head congestion.. then had to thaw-out my truck this morning due to the freeze last night (fuck you, juvenile arthritis.) then, at school, got griped at by every teacher because “its not that cold outside, why do you wear 2 jackets??” its because i feel like shit and i want to be left alone, jackass!!!!! then had to stay after school for drama practice, which was believe it or not a bit of a pick-me-up. got to see some friends and just chill. even bought cheese sticks for a friend. (your welcome, Katie. haha)…i think thats about it… oh yea! suddenly started showing symptoms of bi-polar disorder. but only for a short while…. wierd. wtf is wrong in my head, man?
why can’t i feel somewhat okay? ive never been this bad untill, like, 3 weeks ago or so. WHAT THE FUCK??!!??!! its really upsetting me now… what is triggering this bullshit??!!?? there has GOTTA be something… SOMETHING is making me go completely INSANE
after thinking about the way i spend my time, i still wonder why i’m not out getting money for what i do, and instead sitting at home practicing day in and day out. true, i don’t want a solo career like a friend of mine, but it seems like finding a group of people to form a band with (that will keep me motivated and inspired at the same time) is damn near impossible! when i’m done building the “flying v” project guitar (lovingly named Elvira) i’m putting posters all over everywhere looking for potential band members. forming a funk-rock band not unlike Rare Earth, or even Yes. already have a drummer picked… just need a bassist and rythim guitarist/keyboardist. (either one, or both…. preferably a keyboard player first) …now to finish the guitar.. so close!!