My Mind: Whats on it..

just got home.. had a good, yet tiring day. spent most of…well, ALL of it… with my baby, and got to meet some of her friends. all of which, i might add, were awesome people lol. why she thinks they are weird, eludes me… but i can’t help but think “they act soo much like all of my friends..” i wish good luck to her friend **** (name removed) on her trip back to Germany. must be bittersweet, going back home after making so many good friends here..  so, now i lay in my bed typing away on my Acer.. contemplating wether to stay awake, or go on to bed… Joshi hasen’t texted me since i got home. maybe she fell asleep? i’ll text one more time, to see if she answers. no response, i either go to bed or start playing guitar once again. maybe i will get hypnotized by a jam track (drums and bass, to solo over.) if that happens, i might even watch the sun come up again… oh, insomnia… how i hate/love thee at times..

finally got a laptop. xD wewt! its even a small one. didn’t want one of the huge ones that looks like a flatscreen tv with floor tiles under it, i got a small acer aspire one. i love it!

so, my girl left the house at about 10:30 last night… decided i would just go to sleep right after, cuz i was sleepy all day. and, Lo and Behold as the title suggests, I DIDN’T SLEEP A BIT. litterally, less than 15 minutes. spread out over 6 hours. so, i have been up and about, technically, for 32 hours as of….now. but, man… what i would do for a good swim in the creek right now… but i highly doubt that Jake and terry are home right now. so… fuck..

well, its official now.. i am now out of school. just gotta go get my diploma after graduation, and i’m good..

-sigh-… last week of school is half over… not sure if excited, or severely bummed out..

So, things are finally starting to look up for me. life is finally improving… but i can’t help but think of all the people who have helped me through all my struggles… no matter how short that list is, i love you all… i even accept all of you as a part of my family. and that is saying a lot, from me.. :) glad our paths have crossed, and hope they continue to do so..

ugh… can’t stand this… if i do go to florida this summer (which now, the way my mom is acting as usual, doesnt seem to likely) don’t be surprised if me and my babygirl don’t come back..

Had a pretty good night last night, aside from the feeling like total goat-shit part… Idk what happened, but i just felt…. Sick. Like very sick. Bird flu sick. T-Virus sick, even. Odd… “Home” now. Just got here. Waiting on my baby to get here, then…lord knows what’ll happen. Alone untill then…. uh-oh. :\

well.. at least today wasen’t a bad day… it was actually a pretty decent day, to be honest. i found a piece of wood, long and sturdy enough, to make a cane out of. just need a handle of some sorts, and a foot for the bottom of it, and i’m all set. will deffinitely help out a lot.

got called crippled today, as well. right before i found the stick. how ironic..